If we desire to live a life that is truly dedicated to the Lord we must learn to give up everything we have in order to follow Christ.
The desires and motives of your heart will ultimately determine the outcome of our actions. There is no gray area when it comes to the Bible and God's commandments.
Right now there's something grasping hold of your life, preventing you from hearing the voice of God. Something you're resisting to let go of that has unknowingly, been tearing you down.